Another first for me

[Dead Eye]

If you can't afford lessons etc, just get out on the bike and don't be afraid. Is the fear mostly around the damage to the bike or yourself? Silly question I know, but I usually think about what's going to happen to my poor machine rather than myself

If its the bike, well you already dropped it and have a second now as well! So use your gold one to get more experience and not worry about dropping it as much. Your drops have been from low speed anyway, so you shouldn't (fingers crossed) hurt too much more than your pride

Try to find out which techniques you aren't familiar with or haven't gotten the knack of yet and get out and practice ONE at a time. Trying to through them all together will likely not end well. For example, how confident are you with counter-steering? If not very, get out on some twisty roads and practice. The more you get out and the more miles you rack up, the better you will get It took me a bit of getting used to when I got back in the saddle in January after not riding for 3 months