Totally true that (what VNA says above in Bold).
Perhaps I just wanted to reach out. To hear all your words, to hear the reality of what I'm going through, from an outsiders perspective.
You are welcome.
I'm not sure where you should start. GP's are quite good up here (bonnie Scotland), would help and point you in the direction of further help.
As other's have said, keep notes or a diary, record evidence and keep it all safe.
Your situation sounds pretty serious, and all I can say is taking those first steps to get control of your life back is surely the most important thing you can do. And in turn, in due course, you'll be able to help your kids.
Feel free to post back and let us all know how you are getting on. Hope the bike is now safely stashed away!